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But the exhilaration from ripping sheets after sheets of papers, the thought of throwing all those crap away (perhaps even starting a bonfire with them), composting them even(can paper be used for composting ? ) was such a stress reliever~ Wherever did the stress come from eh? How amusing. Ah. Dear Ms Lau had to Pangseh us halfway cos she was going out for dinner with her dad. Left me to fend for myself from krystelle's cooking lah! Hmm....we made pasta. I chopped and cooked the bacon! Except the fact that it actually tasted differently layer after layer, it was fairly appetizing. (lying through my teeth.) After dinner at 9 going to 10 pm, we continued with our movie marathon until halfway through 'WHITE CHICKS' , Amelia had to run off home. And krys spent an hour sitting at the door, begging Amelia to stay over. ONE WHOLE HOUR PLEASING ( she kept saying 'please...please' , so it happened to be called PLEASING :D ) . I recorded almost the whole thing with my hp, Xin li you want?? It'll be great for the next powerpoint. ;) lol~ Seeing how long she spent 'pleasing' Amelia, I thought I might as well stay over as well. -.-" Talked until 4 am. Went to sleep. Woke up at 12 pm the next day. Had prata again!! What is it with me and pratas~ -.-"
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
something.
I'm coming down with something.
Bet it's the flu~
Sorethroat, runny nose,higher then norm temperatures.
DANG.
IF YOU EAT WITH ME, PLEASE REMEMBER TO REMIND ME TO NOT STEAL/SHARE/SNATCH FOOD FROM YOU COS' I WOULDN'T REMEMBER.
how typical of me.
-.-"
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9:57 pm
Saturday, November 26, 2005
Under Pressure.
by Queen and David Bowie.
Pressure pushing down on me
Pressing down on you
no man ask for
Under pressure
That burns a building down
Splits a family in two
Puts people on streets
Bah bah bah bah bah bah
Bah bah bah bah bah bah
That's o-kay!
It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Screaming let me out!
Pray tomorrow takes me higher
Pressure on people
People on streets
Do do do bah bah bah bah
O-kay
Chippin' around
Kick my brains round the floor
These are the days
It never rains but it pours
People on streets
People on streets
It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Screaming let me out!
Pray tomorrow takes me higher higher higher
Pressure on people
People on streets
Turned away from it all
Like a blind man
Sat on a fence but it don't work
Keep coming up with love
But it's so slashed and torn
Why why why?
Love love love love
Insanity laughs under pressure we're cracking
Can't we give ourselves one more chance?
Why can't we give love that one more chance?
Why can't we give love give love give love?
Give love give love give love give love give love?
Cause love's such an old fashioned word
And love dares you to care
For people on the edge of the night
And love dares you to change our way
Of caring about ourselves
This is our last dance
This is our last dance
This is ourselves under pressure
Under pressure
pressure
a classic.
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12:47 am
Thursday, November 24, 2005
PRATA MANIA!
drawn by XL.
cool eh?
prata forever!
lol~
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9:20 pm
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
when everything was going right.
Met abang today.
Did the bad-habit-with-fingers-until-they-bled thingy again.
Seriously, sometimes I think I've got some semi-dysfunctional self-mutilation shit in my head. lol~
Had quite a long talk with abang about why I did so badly for my promos,what happened throughout the course of study, why I wanted to repeat, what I wanted to do IF I got to repeat and other other other stuff. Like the class thing. (F.Y.I :I had some misunderstanding with my class which I couldn't be bothered to clear. Ignorance is SO ME. lol~) Erm. I'm kinda embarrassed to say this, but I think I almost/was about to/really did, cry.
Like I used to say, overactive tearducts.
HAHA.
He asked me what subjects I wanted to do IF I get to repeat.
I said, Arts fac.
H2-Lit
H2-Maths
H2-Econs
H1-Chem
*and HOPEFULLY KI. But it really depends lah~haha~
(H2 = A'levels.)
(H1 = AO'levels.)
According to the new syllabus, all new J1s must take AT LEAST 3 H2s and 1 H1 to enter Uni.
But now I'm having second thoughts.
Angel suggested ,
H2-Chem
H2-Maths
H2-Econs (since I cannot stand Bio OR Physics.)
H1-Lit
Cos' I'm SUPPOSEDLY quite good at chem, but not very sure about Lit cos' I've NEVER taken it before. Sigh~if only there's something like Lit,maths,chem! (all at H2 level) That'll be nice~haha~
OH.
And did I mention?
I got to repeat J1.
I know it might seem odd (altogether now, saw OAT! LOL!! *inside joke~lol~), but.............PRAISE GOD!
hahahahahahahaha!
:D:D:D:DD:D:D:D:D:D:D
Abang can be quite merciful and NOT-SO-SARCASTIC at times. hahaha~
But I bet he'll be watching me like a hawk from now on. "Big brother's watching~~ -.-""
He even told me to laminate the piece of "EXPECTATIONS OF REPEAT STUDENTS" and stick it on my desk so that whenever I don't feel like studying, I'll look at it and mug.
Which I thought would be quite a good form of 'motivation'.
I think I'll do that soon~lol~
Work was fun today!
Took this little malay girl ,who got lost, around toa payoh to look for her dad. SO CUTE LOH!
lol~
She's about 3? And a fast learner too.
Taught her to wait for the green man before crossing the road, to say 'EXCUSE ME' when people are blocking her way, and not to run in the rain.
Kinda DUH~But she's barely 3 k!
haha~
I shall from now on have a steady supply of sweets which I wouldn't eat but would be kept in my bag, JUST IN CASE I felt like giving candies to kids.
That's if I remember lah.
hahahaha~
It's raining like no one's ever seen before.
Something REALLY REALLY REALLY good is coming my way.
:)
you'll be so good.
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12:53 am
Monday, November 21, 2005
UH-HUH.
Always loved going back to Bhill.
Went back for open house the other day.
The P6 would-be-freshies were LONG gone by the time we got there. But nevermind, didn't go back for them anyway. WAHAHAHA~so mean.
Stole cookies from the juniors, bullied my cadets, played with that hairy lobster in the foyer,drank uncle george's milo,did that flip milo pack thingy I used to always do,talked to teachers I liked(which forms a large majority lah), squinted at nic's hair,laughed at ryan for standing on the weighing scale with his heavy bag on,gawked at the differences between jun kai and his brother,crapped about in the canteen we know and love so verrry verrry verrry much.
wahhhhhhhhhhh.
And people wonder why am I SO crappy.
lol~
Went out with the usual few, with the exception of Krys, amelia and Ishita (an chinese speaking Indian! like WOW!), had a blast. :)
And now onto why I always loved going back to Bhill.
Guess it's just this sense of belonging, a sense of peace second only to home.
In certain aspects, perhaps even better then home.
And wah lau kwayteow I never said anything about my sec sch being a PREMIER(isn't that a brand of tissues?) school.
But you can consider it one. ;)
Hmm....went to church today. (urm, yes I've returned to church -.-")
I thought (and still think that) today's message was a good one!
haha~I don't usually blog about stuff in church, so yep, bear with me~
Today's message was about REST!
haha~the charismatic form of rest I guess.
To rest in His word, grace and righteousness!
To not worry about tomorrow, but sieze the day!
Praise God for dragging me out of bed this morning! (erm, was crapping at angel's pool until 4 am, so I camped over for the night.) I really really really had 99.99% of a mind to just continue sleeping and miss church. The fact that yy was late almost confirmed that bubble of idea that coming to church with barely 4 hours of sleep and work ahead, is a bad idea.
Guess it's just a fear that I'll be missing out on some really good stuff.
Just like last year, and the year before and so on, and so on.
Back then, I went to church cos' it was fun, I get to watch funny pastors act all childish and all just to be 'relevant to our age' and that I get to meet my friends. It was as though, the minute exams were approaching or anything of that sorts came tubbling along, I'd drop my 'faith'(ok. what little of it I had) and took my eyes off the rock of my life.
And people(believers lah, I won't impose my beliefs on another. Not so free. haha~), that's when you allow crap like the devil to take everything from you and dump a mountain of other unecessary crap upon you.
I hope I'll never miss church again.
But then again, I think I'll just rest my worries on that.
:)
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12:05 am
Thursday, November 17, 2005
La DEE dum.
lalala.
I just noticed the fridge is missing.
Then I noticed that my old fridge (the one from my childhood days) is actually in the washing corner.
That's how much time I'm spending at home these days.
O.O
These days I think I'm getting used to the monotones of travelling to work and back(met Hui Fong on the bus today! haha~) and I really thank my dad for my Zen micro, no matter how tempted I am to trade it off and buy some hot new mP3 player.
Hmm....well.....the thrills and excitement from the number of shoes I sell a day and the thought of how much I'm earning these days are kinda dying down, ok more like cooling off. Nevertheless, it's fun still! hahahaha!
Kinda reminds me of my childhood actually.
See, my mum used to work as a shoes sales person before she had me,my sis and my brother. But when andre came tumbling along, my dad was finacially more stable, so yup, she stopped working and became a full time tai tai. XD
So, whenever the nanny/maid/aunt/someone who was supposed to look after me wasn't available(which felt quite frequent), she'd bring me to one of those shoe shops she was working . Then I'll nap in the store room, play with the shoes on display, run around centrepoint....hmmm....just about everything around the shoe shop lah.
Went to watch Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire after work with XY,June, Krys and amelia after work. Kinda a weird group, but oh well, united in search of entertainment! And the fact that I could help them buy tix at 10 am is something to be in awe of. lol~
Bought XY,June and mine's yesterday and Krys and Amelia's today.
Strangely,we all ended up sitting together~hahaha~
How was the movie?
Eh. The ending was quite ok, quite true to the book. No complaints about the casting, but I think that when Voldemort returns to his full form, he'd be rather dashing eh? Ralph Fienne mahhh~And seriously, the dudes in the movie should lose the mob. POSER BEATLES LAH~
The rest of the movie just..............well.....moved too fast. And LOADS of parts were cut off. I wouldn't have minded if the movie was showed in two instalments or 4 hours long, as long as it's truer to the book.
Oh well, fans of the book simply watch for the sake of watching I guess~
Conclusion : the book was DEFINITELY better.
Went for dinner with XY and June after that at US subway.
And people. CHECK OUT XY'S NEW HAIR DO!
Kinda reminds me of my ex-chinese tutor who was from SHANGHAI.
Sounds so Ching chang.
lol~
I think we got drunk on Snapple. :D
No time for training these days too.
I wanna play hockeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey!
RAWR!
Just cos' I can 'eat snake' for certain reasons, doesn't mean I would.
This is my first job and yep.
Gonna try and make the best outta it.
Just hope I can remember where most of the shoes are kept at the end of this week~
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11:09 pm
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Memory
by Sugarcult.
This may never start
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings insincere
Can I be your memory
So get back, back, back to where we lasted
Just like I imagine
I could never feel this way
So get back, back, back to the disaster
My heart's beating faster
Holding on to feel the same
This may never start
I'll tear us apart
Can I be your enemy
Losing half a year
Waiting for you here
I'd be your anything
So get back, back, back to where we lasted
Just like I imagine
I could never feel this way
So get back, back, back to the disaster
My heart's beating faster
Holding on to feel the same
This may never start
Tearing out my heart
I'd be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings disappeared
Can I be your memory
So get back, back, back to where we lasted
Just like I imagine
I could never feel this way
So get back, back, back to the disaster
My heart's beating faster
Holding on to feel the same
This may never start
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings insincere
Can I be your memory
Can I be your memory
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10:25 pm
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
DAY ONE.
First day at work!
Came home with the whole, "HONEY!! I'm home!!" thingy.
Then I remembered I don't call anyone 'HONEY' at home.
lol~
Anyway, work was fun! (strangely)
Or is it just my fondness of cheap thrills?
haha~
Got REAL blur with where the different shoes are placed, how to take credit cards and stuff.
But auntie Doreen was real nice and patient with me~
Kept helping me with the credit cards and with the weird codes on the shoes and shoe boxes.
OH YEAH.
F.Y.I, I'm working as a shoes sales person at TOA PAYOH !
Free come and patronise the shop/visit me, better still, BUY SOMETHING FROM ME!
Best is those $200 gonna hit $300 shoes.
lol~
You'll not only be contributing to my allowance, but my salary as well!
haha!
If you're lucky, I MIGHT even be treating you with my first paycheck *drools at the thought of pay day* , THEREFORE, it'll be a form of INVESTMENT!
wahahahahah!
Yay~I'm high on my foot-fatigue.
Been standing non-stop since 10:30 am.
Oh.
And did I mention that I was ALMOST late for my FIRST DAY OF WORK??
Woke up at 10 am.
Was supposed to be there at 10:30 am.
Reached there at 10:25 am.
Not a single soul was there lah!
See!
No matter how hard I try, I can NEVER be late!
Don't believe ah?
Your problem loh,
lol~
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10:37 pm
Monday, November 14, 2005
Let's see how many gongs actually see the trick.
;)
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12:40 am
Sunday, November 13, 2005
Coffee At 10.
Have any of you ever wondered whether do SOUL MATES exist?
Like under what circumstances would another be considered 'in the running' for the title of YOUR SOUL MATE?
Would it be someone you could really talk to?
Face to face.
Eye to eye.
breathe to breathe. (nevermind the onions and garlics)
Or just someone there for you when you need him/her.
To lend you a shoulder to cry on .
To hand you a tissue when you're trying to hold the tears back.
Maybe a mixture of both?
A cocktail of everything?
Kinda amusing how everyone has a different definition of SOUL MATES.
What to do when in doubt?
Turn to Wikipedia!
According to Wikipedia, Soul mate is a term sometimes used to designate someone with whom one has a feeling of deep affinity, friendship, love, strong intimacy or compatibility.
The term makes reference to the concept of the soul and carries certain New Age overtones. There is a prevalent concept in some segments of the New Age movement that some souls are literally made and/or fated to be the mates of each other, or to play certain other important roles in each others' lives.
A related concept is that of the twin flame or twin soul - thought to be the ultimate soulmate, the one and only other half of one's soul, which all souls are driven to find and unite with.
However, not everyone who uses these terms intends them to carry such mystical connotations; they are sometimes used simply as an expression of strong emotional feeling for someone.
But I don't know...I mean, SOUL.
There's a whole new concept to the existence and purpose of a SOUL now isn't there.
Then before anything clears up, you get the question of 'What is a SPIRIT?'
And if you're anything like me (which is kinda impossible, I HOPE.) you'd probably end up in a whole mesh of rhetorics and another set of ironies before you even get down to the initial question itself.
Regardless of me and myself, I guess I shall resign myself to the notion of 'CLOSE FRIENDS', 'GOOD FRIENDS' ,'FRIENDS' and 'ACQUAINTANCES'.
To look for a soul mate, that'll be as uphill a task as LOOKING for acceptance/love/recognition, or better still, that ever evading question of life's meaning, or God's plan for you.
Some things just aren't meant to be SEARCHED for, but RECEIVED.
Notice the difference?
This is what coffee at 10 pm does to you.
Not that I mind though.
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1:20 am
Saturday, November 12, 2005
CLEAR UP.
RESTOCKING!
Of room that is.
Felt sooooooooooooooooooo pek chek looking through those stacks of Bio, Chem,Maths,Chinese, GP,PW and for some reason, PHYSICS notes (?!) .
Don't ask me why, but I actually sat down and filed everything neatly, labelled boxes of other rubbish in my room, catergorised my files,dusted the shelves.....etc...etc..
Among the more amusing stuff I found was.....
The things I do to occupy myself for 4 hours straight.
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5:50 pm
Friday, November 11, 2005
MOVIE MARATHON.
Movie marathon at krystelle's place!
Was at Kry's place since 2 pm yesterday~
Seriously, it REALLY was a movie marathon.
We started watching Bewitched (the oldies version) at 2, after a whole load of other crappy movies..............We went to 'sleep' at 2 am.
12 WHOLE HOURS ON KRYSTELLE'S COUCH!!!Ok lah, there plenty of 'breaks' in between, like us (Amelia, Krys and I) cooking pasta and a whole load of other crappy stuff lah~
Hmmm.....what did we watch....
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10:49 pm
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
OP.
Had Oral Presentation today.
How was it?
One word.
OVER!!!!!!!!!!
lol~
OK lah, afew hiccups here and there like being unable to use our laptop for the OP, lousy sound system, other crappy equipment like the shitty projector, the ugly colours of the screen, me forgetting one component of my slides.................
Nevertheless, it went fairly smoothly!
haha!
Many thanks to aloy , mich, hazel and their PW group member (Johnathan is it?), for lending us their laptop,pen,stapler and offering to lend us their thumbdrive!
WOAH!
Nice peeps they are, many many many many thanks from my group and I!
hmmmmm.......my presentation.
Let's just say it went as planned, in spite of the hiccups, between 4-5 mins, not too fast (I hope), not too slow (I hope).
Well.....some people thought it was good, but pity it isn't them assessing eh?
OH YEAH.
Talk about serious assessors, our room's assessors were like eating and drinking throughout all the four gruops' presentations lah! Picnic man!
haha~but eating too much didn't affect their minds quite a bit eh?
The questions were kinda CHEEM, but..........expected.
Really must thank Ms Ang and ..........unexpectedly- my class, for the Q&A TYS session.
It was basically a dry run Q&A whereby EVERYONE in class could ask any memeber about ANYTHING regarding the project on Q&A.
Averaged out to be about 10 ++ questions per person actually~ -.-"
Answered until we started debating even.
lol~
Well, just hope my answer was good enough.
Peeps who knew me since Sec sch probably know that I'm a Q&A killer.
You peeps should have seen the faces of people I've 'killed' before during Q&A, PURE SHOCK man! I'm SO into cheap thrills~-.-"
lol~
I'm soooooooo evil!
wahahahahaha!
BUT,I'm no Q&A acer. (Erm, pun unintended)
So yup, can't say much about that.
ALL IN ALL (doesn't everyone use this in their presentations~),
PW IS OVER...........FOREVER!
YAY!
:)
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11:41 pm
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
PRATA PRATA PRATA!
Corn and I have decided that prata at 3 am is definitely material to blog about.
LOL~
Let's see.....we were chatting on MSN, when he suddenly said,
08-Nov-05
2:42:34 AM
___cornyyy letsfreefall :
eh lets go supper or smth
08-Nov-05
2:42:42 AM
___cornyyy letsfreefall :
hahaha im feeling bored at home in this toopid aircon room.
..........................
and thus, the mad rush for pratas at 3 am.
lol~
Since the buses and MRTs aren't running at 3 in the morning, we had to cab our way to the Prata shop near Long house.
$6 for cab fare, $2.30 for prata and teh-C.
BROKE liao!
Nvm nvm! The cheese prata was good, so it was money well spent!
I think that's the first time I had a cheese prata(yes I'm SUPER lag on prata terms.) ,thanks to the recommendation of my bridge coach! lol~
After prata, we walked alllllllllllllllllll the way from Long house to Novena.
Which really isn't THAT long if you have people like corn crapping with you along the way~
Caught several cobwebs along the way too.
DAMN ulu lah some of the paths.
Kinda reminded me of Post Prom last year.
Us walking around town in sleeping gear and flip flops at 4 or 5 am, drinking different brands of soya bean milk, laughing our heads off.
lol~
Anyway, prata was good, CJ kids are mad and really, it's not everyday you find like-minded mad caps who'd go have prata with you at 3am then walk with you all the way home cos' you've run out of moola for a cab.
Thanks Corn!
The things people do at 3 am for prata.
lol~
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5:30 pm
Monday, November 07, 2005
TAGBOARD MANIA!
My my, why does everyone hate shoutboxes?
I got my like 10th complaint about it this week!
To accomodate the masses and also myself cos' I get bored with stagnant tagboards, I went to try a flashbox simply cos' cboxes don't match my template. lol~
Until I find some fault in it, we'll just try it out eh?
Wah, I really should go into a profession of a tagboard tester, testing all sorts of tagboards just for the sake of finding the RIGHT one for mankind!
What a honourable profession.
lol~
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1:13 pm
Friday, November 04, 2005
Post drama plans.
ALRIGHT!
Future Plans!
Hmmm.....According to the limited options I have at the moment, I'm actually targeting a repetition of J1 at CJ.
Yah, I actually need to fight to retain cos' abang's never known to be generous. -.-"
Kinda silly when the rest of the JC population is either targeting an A at their next major exams, or a change of air at the poly/centralised institutes/tekong/overseas?!
But I'm pretty sure this is what I want.
I want a second chance.
To enter a faculty I'm DAMNED sure I'll be going to at University level.
To study subjects I'm interested in.
To show them that I didn't do badly cos' I couldn't, but cos' I wouldn't.
Go into a different class. (YAY! YAY! YAY!)
Go through the bloody new system if I have to.
In fact. I think that's the exact reason why I want to retain.
Then nobody can say anything about me getting better grades next year as a result of "reinforcement of J1" .
Haha. Me and my queer thoughts.
And strangely, there are times whereby I think my mind subconsciously made this decision and made my body do the rest of the dirty work.
Shutting off during lectures, tutorials and revision sessions.
Refusing to do any of my homework. (OK. maybe just chem. Which was why I passed chem -.-")
deliberately doing anything but studying when the exams were like 24 hours from where I was.
So......... yup.
I deserved to NOT promote.
That's why I'm so cool with the whole I'm-not-gonna-promote thingy.
Perhaps this IS God's plan for me.
That I have chosen the wrong path, and that this was His way of bringing me back.
I believe that everything happens for a reason.
That my Father up there would NEVER wish to see me sad and all, so yup.
Something REALLY GOOD's coming my way.
Especially with all that rain these days.
That's my faith in Him.
Funny how it usually takes a tragedy to happen before you allow your Dad to open up your heart and soul towards his glory.
Once again, I thank all who told me to take in spiritual food and also BIG THANKS to my supporters!
lol~seems like I have my own little fan club too!
Everybody go, "GO ALI , GO ALI GO!" .
How amusing!
lol~
:)
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11:47 pm
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
The Shadow Proves The Sunshine.
by Switchfoot.
Sunshine, won't you be my mother
Sunshine, come and help me sing
My heart is darker than these oceans
My heart is frozen underneath
We Are
Crooked souls trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain,
When the shadow proves the sunshine,
the shadow proves the sunshine
Two scared little run aways
Hold fast till the break of daylight where,
The shadow proves the sunshine,
The shadow proves the sunshine
O, Lord, why did you forsake me?
O, Lord, don't be far away (away)
Storm clouds gathering beside me
Please Lord, don't look the other way
I am a,
Crooked soul trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain
Where the shadow proves the sunshine,
the shadow proves the sunshine
Two scared little run aways
Hold fast till the break of daylight where,
The shadow proves the sunshine,
The shadow proves the sunshine
Yeah, yeah!
Shine on me
Yeah, yeah!
Shine on me
Yeah, yeah!
Shine on me
Yeah, yeah! (shine on me)
We're,
Crooked souls trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain
Where the shadow proves the sunshine,
the shadow proves the sunshine
Two scared little run aways
Hold fast till the break of daylight where,
The shadow proves the sunshine,
The shadow proves the sunshine
Yeah, yeah (the shadow proves the sunshine)
Shine on me (the shadow proves the sunshine)
Yeah, yeah (the shadow proves the sunshine)
Shine on me (the shadow proves the sunshine)
Yeah, yeah (the shadow proves the sunshine)
Shine on me (the shadow proves the sunshine)
Shine on me, (the shadow proves the sunshine)
Let my shadows prove the sunshine (the shadow proves the sunshine)
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9:34 pm