Monday, October 31, 2005

YUMMY!

Just got home from the LARGEST dinner I've ever had- this year.
Went to Billy Bombers with my FAT kwayteow!

Had this HUGE Cheesy beef hotdog called Philly's something, can't remember.
Largest one I've see so far~
At least I think it's supposedly a hotdog lah~

It was DELICIOUS!
hahaha~
Terrbily fat laden and all,but nevermind! Once in awhile only right?
I think I'm saying this line all the time, but what the heck!
Die young but happy, not old and sad eh!

OK, it doesn't make sense, but who cares!

Hmmm....the dessert was real yummy too!
Secret special, today's one was apple crumble.
Best one I've had so far eh?

And the price wasn't TOO expensive lah....Kway teow and I shared the dessert($4.50), the hotdog was $10.50 (quite value for money considering it's portion). In addition to service charge, I think I paid around $14?

yup yup.

The place's deco was pretty stylo retro too.
Kinda like the 60's or 70's that era.
Cool~

Went around town window shopping.
I like that Adidas red and white flip flops!
$39.

OK.
SAVE.
haha~

But it'll be REAL nice if you *HINT HINT* could buy it as a deepavali or Hari Raya present for me or something.
You never need a occasion to give greedy alison a present! lol~

Nah, just kidding, I'd probably get it myself, or lose interest in it soon.
How typical of me.

Also, how could I possibly remove that tormenting task of deciding what to get me for my impending birthday from you peeps ??
I'm not that nice eh!

Yeah, my friends are SO nice, I'm SO sure they'll definitely get me something for my birthday.
lol~

Kinda high from the extremely HIGH sugar intake.
Had Ben & Jerry's you see.

WOOO HOOO!
HOLIDAYS ARE APPROACHING!

I'm leaving hell real soon.
:)

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11:06 pm


Thursday, October 27, 2005

PROMOTED. NOT.

I'm ok I'm ok I'm ok I'm ok I'm ok I'm ok I'm ok I'm ok I'm ok I'm ok I'm ok I'm ok.
REALLY.
REALLY.
REALLY.
GAWD.


OK.
Now, I'm supposed to be some red-eyed, swollened faced girl who cries excessively over NOT PROMOTING. It's like people are surprised how normal I look and speak.

Hello?!
It's not as though it's the end of the world right??
So what would I get out of being visibly upset, upsetting everyone who cares ?

Let's get serious here. Who in the right state of mentality enjoys or relishes the idea of having all your options limited and numbered day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute, second by second ?

OF COURSE I'm not jumping for joy over the 'news'~
But what's the point in crying my heart out for something as trivial as promotion?
There's alot more going on here other then promotion isn't it?
Who knows, this might even be some big break for me.
At least I hope so lah~
haha~

Don't get me wrong though.
It's not as though I'm some ungrateful ingrate who doesn't see that there are people out there who actually care for me.
It's just that constantly looking at faces screaming with concern, or listening to words filled with sorrow, or watching the words "Are you ok?" materialise on my plasma monitor isn't exactly helpful to me in anyway.

But really.
I thank the concerned and the kan chong-ed (my kwayteow!) .

Always look on the bright side of life....
:)

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9:10 pm


Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Not you.

I'd have given you anything.
I'd have apologised a thousand times if you wished it be.
I'd even die for you, if it would save your's.

But never.
I'd never thought that it'll be you.
Never have I thought you'd be the one who breaks me.
The one who tears me.
The one who killed me.

It wasn't easy, trying to get my feet back on the ground.
Try to make it seem alright.
Be the perfect sister you'd ever have.

But I can't.
I failed.
And though I admit it is all my fault,
why couldn't you be more understanding?

I could take anyone's laughter.
I can ignore everyone's stares.
But not you.
Not you.

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10:44 pm


Friday, October 21, 2005

Beautiful day!

hAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED MUMMY, GRAC-SI!
LOVE YA TRUCK LOADS DEAR!
Can't wait to see ya this Sunday!
:)

Today was strangely one of the happiest days of my CJ life so far.
Nevermind the fact that I sound a little pathetic due to the sorry fact that I've been in CJ since march....but still!

Hmmm....sian day as usual, PW, chinese, half hearted attempts to listen to other lessons...
Lots of comics and books and mP3...which is good!
lol~
Yes, I'm a boring bookworm~

But the fun part was oddly, CHINESE lecture.
We were doing something about commonly made chinese word mistakes.
Kinda like editing, just in chinese.
And for some reason, the people around me were all SUPER enthu about it, and I guess that sort of rubbed off me~
So we were screaming and rushing to finish that bloody worksheet that it was actually kinda thrilling!
lol~

I SO dig cheap thrills LOH~
hahahahaha~

Went to Lido to find Michelle after that.
Played with her clique there.
The village boy taught me bridge!
lol~

ok~although this is like the 2nd time someone tried to teach me bridge, I'm still kinda blur about it.
But perhaps cos' I had beginners' luck or something, I won 2 rounds straight!
lol~

Hmmm...went for training when Jeslyn came.
Training was fun!
Ok lah, Manjit was kinda psycho scary as usual, but I can really feel that all of us are improving in our own ways.
Which is good!
hehe~

After training almost the whole hockey team went to Subway for dinner!
And it was damn farney lah!
lol~
That's probably cos' everyone got so lame and high on glucose~

Kinda lazy to elarborate on it, cos there's just too much of it, and I'm dead beat now~
But in short, WHAT-A-BEAUTIFUL-DAY!
I LOVE CJ HOCKEY!
:D

Hope tomorrow's 4e1 Class gathering would be a success!
Organised by Krys, Angel and I.
As my ah mah likes to say,
"DON'T TURN OUT FINE ALSO MUST AH!"
lol~

What would I do without such nutcases in my life.

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11:50 pm




Friday I'm In Love

by The Cure

I don't care if monday's blue
tuesday's grey and wednesday too
thursday I don't care about you
it's friday I'm in love

monday you can fall apart
tuesday wednesday break my heart
thursday doesn't even start
it's friday I'm in love

saturday wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday never hesitate...

I don't care if monday's black
tuesday wednesday heart attack
thursday never looking back
it's friday I'm in love

monday you can hold your head
tuesday wednesday stay in bed
or thursday watch the walls instead
it's friday I'm in love

saturday wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday never hesitate...
dressed up to the eyes
it's a wonderful surprise
to see your shoes and your spirits rise
throwing out your frown
and just smiling at the sound
and as sleek as a shriek
spinning round and round
always take a big biteit's such a gorgeous sight
to see you in the middle of the night
you can never get enough
enough of this stuff

it's friday

I'm in love

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11:41 pm


Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Comfortably numb.

To say that I'm ok, takes lies.
To smile, just like I used to, takes hypocrisy.
To laugh it all off, takes pride.

How did things come to this.
Gradually then suddenly,
all I could say.

Just to let you know I'm ok,
I could take it all, and throw it all away.

I'll smile to bid truth goodbye.
I'll pretend to dream it away.
Cos' I'm too numb to feel.
Comfortably numb.






Please don't take this away.

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10:34 pm


Sunday, October 16, 2005

Open house Galore!

L.A.S.T outing twice as frequent as usual. (It's used to be like twice a week.)
So basically, like what my mum screamed at me today," YOU GOT HOME LIKE NO HOME LEH!" .
Mothers~

Oh well~

Went JC open house hopping yesterday.
First stop was at AJ.
Took 162 and ended up DEEP into Bishan before winding up at AJ.
Haven't been to that area for SOME time (since 1st 3 months) so, yep, forgot which bus goes to AJ faster.

Anyway, when I got there I was greeted with lots of HUGS! haha!
Lost count of how many, there's just so many people at AJ I missed!
Elizabeth, Sze En, ah long, slacker sis,Benny,Hui Min, Lynette, Kun Lin, Kian Lin, Gang Khu........etc.....etc......and some others who went to other jcs~
Noticed I missed out Krystelle?
That's cos I'll still see that amplifier at 4E1's class gatherings and other rubbish.

Anyway, I got almost 4 goodie bag offers, but please lah, me posing as a sec 4 is bad enough, so I didn't take any of the goodie bags, unlike SOME people I know, who go by the names of LEE XIN LI and YEO QUAN YOU ,who purposely went goodie bag hunting.

Hmmm....any comments about AJ's open house?
Eh. I think last year's one was better, party cos' last year's mass dance display wasn't as 'SINGAPORE BIG WORKOUT' as this year's one. Not to mention, last year's councilors made the dance look cool, while this year's batch allowed the dance to make them look like fools.
Maybe that part about "we practiced day and night, to hell and through shit", a JC2 councilor once told me wasn't kidding.
Who knows? haha~

Also it was DAMN early lah. (10 am)
So I guess we can't blame normal human beings for being unable to function normally at that time. (XY isn't human. :D)

And I was only there to find my first 3 months friends ahhh~
Kinda nice to see so many familiar faces at so many familiar places after so long.

After krys and eliz changed out of their first aid tees and aj skirts, krys made an ASTOUNDING discovery. She had forgotten to shave her armpits!! And she was wearing a tank lah! LOL~
So eliz and I had to hold her hand as we walked around to prevent her from raising her arms unnecessary~lol~

We then left for NS to meet Amelia.
Since we all knew that Amelia wouldn't want to go the SA's open house, I had to devise a plan to urm, trick her there. Krys would ask where do we go and I was supposed to say that I'm bored of town (which is true) and that there's this new place I would like to try. It was so obvious cos' krys and I kept laughing, but STRANGELY, Amelia actually fell for it! lol~

But krys, dunno being nice or being the blabber mouth that she is,told Amelia before we got onto the bus. But Amelia was so nice to just follow along. Hee~sorry for the urm scam, amelia!

On the bus, we were seated a few seats behind a bunch of Sec 4 lians and bengs on their way to SA's open house. As I hear long distanced conversations better then short distanced ones (a cause of anguish for Angel) for some reason, I heard every word they said. And it wasn't as though they were real quiet k~

One of the lians was gushing about XiaXue's new blog template and how nice her legs are.
Like WTH?
The whole world knows that XiaXue has some dude to do practically the entire layout for her, and that ALL her photos were tempered with photoshop.
Unless she was trying to do a lil' trick or treat lah.

OK. Then why did I even eavesdrop into little lian's conversations?
Can't help it k!!

Later, due to my unwanted 'girft' of eavesdropping, I said to krys and Amelia LOUDLY,
"WHO SAID MSG?? I HEARD A MSG JUST NOW!?!".
So we were laughing like mad when krys told me it was the kids in front who said that~

Then had lunch at Subway before going to SA.
It's like my fourth Subway meal this week lah.
Same menu item somemore!
haha~

But I don't mind.
Subway rocks!
lol~

Hmmm......at SA we met up with Elizabeth's friend Cheryl who was nice enough to show us around,even though we're really not what you'd consider "WOULD-BE JUNIORS".
And the most amusing thing I found at SA was the fact that they had these 2 entrances.
One read,"SEC 4s", while the other read "OTHERS."
Clearly they were expecting crashers like us. lol~

The funnier thing was that they SCREEN those claiming to be sec 4 by checking their EZlink cards. In case you didn't know, one check with the computer and EZ link, your age and school would be urm revealed.

So the true blue sec4s got the famed shoe bags( like hur??) and goodie bag etc....
SA was ok I guess, kinda messy here and there but it seemed like a fun place to be in.
haha~
Pity the same couldn't be said about the toilets.
But one thing eliz and I were amazed about SA was that it's toilets are SMELL-LESS!
WOW.

What's with me and school toilets??
lol~

I think Quan You caught on Xin Li's zeal for taking 'candid' shots.
Throughout our time at AJ and SA, not once did they stop taking pictures~
How typical of them~
But I guess Krys, amelia and I were too used to it to be bothered lah~
Worst come to worst, wallop them both for the UGH pics they mange to squeeze out of us! lol~
Pity the same couldn't be said about eliz and cheryl , who were both so uncomfortable at having the two taking pics of them.

lol~

Nothing much to say about SA's school compounds since they're moving next year.

Went to Harbourfront again where we shopped, and shopped and window shopped, slacked, crapped, lamed ,and everything else~lol~
Damn lame and crappy, the stuff we did there~
I think we frightened a little girl too.
lol~

After separating (krys and amelia went for some Indian dance thingy, eliz was tired) I went to find HUA's beloved LOBBY (oh my oh my, I wonder if anyone still uses that nickname~lol~).

Had a blast yesterday.
Guess me being all sian-ed diao-ed in school does repay!
Monetarily wise.
Now that I don't want to spend a single cent/second/joule on things/people/inhumans that upset me, I save so much more for my weekend escapades!!

More importantly, it helped me cherish the time I have with my friends ALOT more then how I would have valued our times together the same time last year.

So yeah.
Nevermind if the whole world misunderstands you.
Just as long as those who matter don't, the rest don't matter.

:)

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11:11 pm


Monday, October 10, 2005

Age 3.

Age three, you probably never knew that that Indian boy sitting next to you was any different from you.

You probably didn't understand the value of gold, or how the world revolves around it.
Neither did you know of any fear, pride, evil, love, peace.
You only wondered why the world's so big, why are crayons so attractive and why glue tastes so good.

See at that age we watched life without coloured glasses.
Upset, we cry.
Happy, we laugh.
Unsure, we ask.
Appreciated, we smile.
Full, we burp.
Rested, we fart.
Simple as that.

Strange how the years bring us up to be such hypocrites.
Smiling cos' we're expected to.
Laughing cos' we're supposed to.
Saying what we never meant.
Pretending everything's ok, when really you just wanna scream and run.

Kinda amusing how everyone's born free and uninhabited only to grow up restricting him or her own self to whatever everyone else deems as 'OK'.

The things I amuse myself with.

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10:22 pm


Saturday, October 08, 2005

CJ open house '05.

Yay! CJ open house rocked!

Ok lah, it started off kinda sian and all, but I guess it's the earliness all of the sudden.
8 AM after waking up at 12 noon for 4 days IS EARLY. (yes. once again. XY ISN'T HUMAN!!)
Not to mention there really isn't any freshies around that early. So yep. Nothing to do. So we played hockey!!

Man, I'm really getting rusty. VERY rusty.
Oh well~would have the whole holidays to settle that.
That is if I even make it to J2 lah.

Anyway, we played for quite some time until our breakfirst/lunch/brunch came.
We ordered McDonald's you see.
I'm lovin' it! :D

After that we sorta just slacked around til it drizzled. T.T
Had to move everything to 1T21's classroom, which we had to share with the Rugby and soccer guys. But neither CCA came to take up that place.
So yay!
A whole class room to HOCKEY!
But it didn't matter too much lah~

Wandered about for quite some time since business wasn't really that good.
You reckon something about us eating Mac's while all the other CCAs stationed at the grandstand were playing their sport made some statement about us? lol~

Waited outside the PAC for quite some time with the hockey girls for I-don't-know-what. (later I found out the Dance club is putting up a performance)
Yeah~followed aimlessly cos the stall was damn sian lah.
Discussed about what colour we wanted our jerseys to be. At the moment , all I know is that it wouldn't be in any shade of BLUE or YELLOW. Yes, abang likes everyone to be uniformed. Even in competition. -.-"

Used the PAC(Performing Arts Centre) toilet.
Like. WOW.
STYLO man! At lest 3 times bigger then regular school toilets! And they had these fancy taps that those home deco mags like to show. Yes, I just noticed I'm gushing about toilets~

OK. Went in, and Abang was all surprised at how excited the current CJCians are over the dance rather then the freshies. The dance was so-so lah, kinda lost it's effect on me due to repeated exposure~Saw it during CCA orientation, Sports Day..various occasions...now open house.
It's good lah, just not so WOW after the 764435352413 time it's performed.

Oh yeah. Did I mention what's the theme for this year's open house?
It's , "IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU." .
Like WTH??

Went to play hopscotch after that. (yay~I have no childhood, whatever. lol)
For almost 2 whole hours. Or perhaps more.
We initially started with May, Michelle and I, but later on May left and Michelle's friend (Cornelius? spell correct?) joined us.
Wah lau I haven't played hopscotch in TEN years, and my 'skills' deteriorated until like SAI lah!
Mich and Cornelius beat me to a pulp lah!
Especially that Cornelius, he had 6 homes!
So all he had to do was WALK, not hop, not jump.
Kampung boy !

Anyway while I was playing hopscotch,I saw quite a number of non-freshies (those currently in poly or JC ), like MARCUS LIM, WEE JUN KAI , TRISTAN TAY and co.(not close to the rest.)
Bloody waste of resources man, these guys only came to find a UH HMM lah.

Met Lausanne too. I think I got her mixed up on the auditorium and PAC.
You see, CJ's auditorium looks like a hall. Just air-conditioned.
While the PAC looks like an auditorium.

But I didn't see any of my juniors from BHSS!!
Haha~kinda expected though. Last year, I didn't even know CJ had a open house, let alone the fact that I was going through a "I DIE ALSO DUN WANNA GO CJ" phrase. Stereotypical view, apparently CJCians are a bunch of towning freaks. Which actually is true. lol~
What did you expect?? We take barely 5 minutes to town lah!

And yeah, I doubt Balestierians wanna come to CJ, most peeps there are either DEAD set on Poly (like nic) or wanna go some other JC like AJ,NY,NJ.
Who wouldn't want to go to a better jc?
But freshies I remind you ah. I entered CJ with a bloody 13.
Not 15, not 16, not 17 like what the previous CJCians entered with.
But your year should have less competition.
:)

Either way, whether you like it or not, I'd hope to see SOME of you next year. (If I'm still there lah~)


Later on we went to play captain's ball with the netball girls. Hockey girls versus net ball girls (nu er, no bimbo ;) ). Except that it was like 10 hockey girls versus 5 netball girls~ lol~
Was very fun nevertheless, and I haven't a clue who's leading. Guess nobody was keeping score.
Then we heard mass dance music coming from the concourse, so all the hockey girls (ok, the more sot diaoed ones) rushed there and started mass dancing!!
I danced with Kai , and we both got confused with the Indian one, cos we didn't know who's the guy part, and who's the gal part~ -.-"
It was so random and messy that those watching probably didn think much of it, but those dancing sure had fun!

yep yep. Turns out we ended up having more fun then tending to the stall.
Guess that then is the true CJ spirit- Random yet HIGH~

:)

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8:50 pm


Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Say Anything

by Good Charlotte.

Here I am on
The phone again and
Awkward silence is
On the other end

I used to know
The sound of a smile
In your voice
But right now
All I feel Is the pain of the fighting
Starting up again

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind (on my mind)
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time (after time, after time)

Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you want to stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Some say that
Time changes
Best friends can
Become strangers
But I don't want that
No not for you
If you just stay with me
We can make it through

So here we are again
Same old arguement
And now I'm wondering
If things'll ever change, yeah

When will you laugh again?
Laugh like you did back when
We made noise till 3 am
And the neighbors would complain

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind (on my mind)
All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time (after time, after time)

Don't say a word I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you want to stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin' down
I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin' down
Down, down, down

Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
Please don't walk away
I know you want to stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

(Please) Don't say a word
I know you feel the same (don't leave)
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything
(Please) Please don't walk away
I know you want to stay (don't leave)
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything


There's another version with similar lyrics and a similar tune, It's called "Time after Time" and it's pretty good too.
But that's more for the BGR kinda love and I thought this one was more about friendship and it describes how I felt during our 'Cold war' better..

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9:15 pm




Sorry.

I WENT OUT WITH YY TODAY!!!!

*YY is the siao chao bo with a terrible case of MHS(Messy Hair Syndrome) lol~

*ok lah yy your hair not messy liao k? Don't cry ,don't cry~lol~

I've lost contact with her for SOOOOOOOOO LOOONG man...

We had this HUMONGOUS cold war quite some time ago.

All over what?

Honestly I don't really remember the exact details or the reason why we got so mad at each other...
Perhaps like a friend just said to me,I am too petty at times.
Maybe I'm oversensitive at the other times.

Oh well.
That's just me I guess.

I only remember that at that point in time, she hated me, I'm afraid of her, she refused to talk to me, I decided to shut her off my life.

I guess that's the problem with those you're closest too.
It's always those you love the most who hurt you the most. Always.
Not to mention we're just about the most stubborn and proud duo you peeps would ever know.
You'd reckon it has something to do with us being born on the exact same day ?
haha~

Anyway...we pretty much cleared up those bouts of unhappiness over coffee today.
We then did some catching up. Ok. ALOT.
Gosh I missed her SO MUCH!

But I have no idea why was I so stiff when she hugged me..
Sorry yy..nervous reflex action. I think.

And, no it wasn't entirely your fault.
We both said some wrong words.
We both did some dumb stuff.

I'm sorry if I deserted you for some time..I didn't know how to face you..
I'm sorry I didn't try to clear things up sooner..I didn't think you'd want to talk.
I'm sorry for all the wrong stuff I said, all those stupid actions I did.
You know I didn't mean them.

And I know you never wanted to hate me.
And I understand why you'd hate me.
It's ok now.

After all of that crap, I'm just glad that we managed to break that mask.
Both of our masks.

LOVE YA LOADS ol' 'pretty' MONSTER !
:D

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8:52 pm


Tuesday, October 04, 2005

FREAK.

*Disclaimer note: The below was written in jest and only refer to certain online habits/acts and not the perpetuator him/herself.

*And I really BTH them. :)


Now that I can't turn on the volume of my computer, I can go visit blogs with freaking music!

OK laaah, I know I'm an advocate to the "to each his/her own" philosophy, but there are just SOME online stuff that I bth.

1. FREAKING music from blogs/websites.

Not everyone has the same music tastes.
And I'm always playing my own stuff, so YES it is a form of disturbance/trauma when I hear a 'remixed' version of both songs, one from my own player, the other from the website/blog.

2. FREAKY words that take the form of 'eUs.....LuFf mOix...YaDaH..BlEaHx..' or stuff like 'h o w s d o o e u u ' s d o o' (wah, very difficult leh~I wonder how did they do it -.-")

Like. WTH? More then 10 years of education and you can't write normally?!?
And NO, it's not cute, it's ACT CUTE.
Reflective of who you are? Ah. That's true.
Infer from the above.
;)

3. FREAKENING popups!!

I'm not referring to those spam pop ups, but those that SOME people deliberately html into their blog/website template. And what's worse is they inoculate no. 2 into the pop ups with annoying stuff like "do euu luff miess..." yadah...yadahh.....

It's just freaking annoying and not to mention, DISTURBING.


At least for me.

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11:30 pm


Monday, October 03, 2005

Resolve.

How does it feel like to lose someone you've entrusted your whole future to?
What is it like to fall so hard that only a hundred prozacs could save you?
Why does the truth hurt?
Why do lies control?
Where do all tears go?
Where does lost lead to?

What is happiness when half the world goes on about being contented with what you have. While the other half fights for the truth, regardless of smiles or frowns. Thousands have told you the wisdom of a fool wouldn't set you free. That no one should feel envious of the happiness of those who live in a fool's paradise, for only a fool will think it's happiness.

Seriously, I don't know about you, but I like the idea of never finding out about certain issues like what is you purpose in life, what impact do you have on those around you , or even what is happiness all about. To me, that's a form of happiness.

Perhaps it's my refusal to accept anything that's fixed , rigid, predestined or 'right'.
What fun is there if there's nothing to search for, nothing to seek, nothing to fight for,nothing to rebel against,nothing.

I don't like to go to church.
I don't like school.
I don't like the stuff I read.

I don't like to have my thoughts fabricated by some faceless hands of those from the 'higher powers'. Neither do I fancy the idea of conforming to everyone else , at least not in thought. Afterall, with the limited breathing space we have these days, it's the very minimum I must have, air to breathe. It may not be super clean or speckless, but at least I have some space to muse.

A friend once asked me what happened to me.
Something about my sudden disability to mug as I used to.
Or that optimism I use to grasp.
Or even how much ambitious I was.

Well.
I wouldn't say I've changed cos I'm still me, still the same ol' goondu who lames and craps.
Same old gong who smiles at everything. Good, bad ,whatever. Habit.

But I guess I've decided that I don't want to live my life at the varying ends of the balance.
I don't want to mug, get great grades, almost end up at some rehabilation centre for anorexic girls and lose my friends.
Neither do I want to cry my night away become of some ass who ruined my day.
Nor do I want to encourage a fake oblivion.
Or to define another's values or opinions .

I just want to find that inner peace that does not compromise on everything that I love.
Kinda late for a resolution eh?

Just a little resolve.

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10:38 pm




Annoucement please.

PROMOTIONAL EXAMINATIONS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER!
*cheers
#shrieks
^cries
+whoops

Now I can start preparing for supplementry papers~
-.-"

RIGHT.
Hmm.....haven't posted an actual posting for quite some time.
And though I doubt this is gonna be an actual post, but it'll be longer, that's for sure.

Since I've been released from promos-land, I've been doing nothing but bingeing on rubbish like baked rice, walking around aimlessly and reading mangas. Naturally my mind is left pretty much unoccupied and thoughtless.

But for some reason, thought drifted to the idea of death and everything else.

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8:46 pm